Sunday, 14 December 2008

Filter Happier

U trenu, bez najave, uhvatiš misao da već užasno dugo nisi napravio nijedan plan čiji je rok trajanja duži od onog jogurta u frižideru, daleko si od pasterizovanog mleka, za to je potrebno vežbe & kondicije, zašto uopšte govoriti o konzerviranom voću kupljenom u diskontu (dakle, mora stradati u blagoutrobiju u narednih mesec dana) - i ono će nadživeti devedeset i sedam procenata onoga što čini moj plan za budućnost.

Šta, zapravo, planirati u sistemu o kojem si pre 20 godina čitao u "Jeseni Patrijarha", a sada ga živiš u blažoj modifikaciji, siguran sam da bih i ja sad mogao rafalno ispaliti više od šezdeset stranica u jednoj rečenici poput G.G. u poslednjem poglavlju te knjige, ne bi bile kvalitetne poput njegovih, ali siguran sam da bih mogao i kako kaže Uglješa – "ako sada počnem, možda ću sve i zapisati" no sada je kasno, trebalo je ranije to sve zapisati - i sve se verovatno događa samo zato što nisam dovoljno napora uložio na vreme - da jesam, ne bih sada živeo tu sekvencu: u "Jeseni" su more, pučinu, horizont, galebove, miris, vetar, so - sve lepo isparcelisali,
natovarili
i odneli.
I gotovo.

I sad ti pravi plan.
I planiraj kako ćeš izaći iz zemlje za šesnaest dana, koliko nam još važe pasoši, oni iz pra-bivše države.
I opet vežbaj unutrašnje emigracije.

Radiohead:

2 comments:

  1. Radiohead/Filter Happier

    fitter, happier more productive
    comfortable
    not drinking too much
    regular exercise at the gym (3 days a week)
    getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries
    at ease
    eating well (no more microwave dinners and saturated fats)
    a patient better driver
    a safer car (baby smiling in back seat)
    sleeping well (no bad dreams)
    no paranoia
    careful to all animals (never washing spiders down the plughole)
    keep in contact with old friends (enjoy a drink now and then)
    will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in wall)
    favours for favours
    fond but not in love
    charity standing orders
    on sundays ring road supermarket
    (no killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants)
    car wash (also on sundays)
    no longer afraid of the dark
    or midday shadows
    nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate
    nothing so childish
    at a better pace
    slower and more calculated
    no chance of escape
    now self-employed
    concerned (but powerless)
    an empowered and informed member of society (pragmatism not idealism)
    will not cry in public
    less chance of illness
    tires that grip in the wet (shot of baby strapped in back seat)
    a good memory
    still cries at a good film
    still kisses with saliva
    no longer empty and frantic
    like a cat
    tied to a stick
    that's driven into
    frozen winter shit (the ability to laugh at weakness)
    calm
    fitter, healthier and more productive
    a pig
    in a cage
    on antibiotics

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  2. uf, opasno dobro poređenje u prvoj rečenici.

    a pisati treba sve.

    ako te ne mrzi svrati do broda u 29. novembra u subotu. biće sigurno i radiohead, poneka iz plejade njihovih up-tempo pesama :)

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